“Um. Yeah. Hang on a second.” [DELETE EVERYTHING] “Here ya go!”
Invited to an 80’s themed party tonight… no idea how I’m going to pull that off… especially with my limited Austrian wardrobe.
My evangelical christian grandmother spams my facebook wall with jesus links in an attempt to convert me.
This is one of the worst weeks of my entire life. Not only was I rejected (for probably the same reason that I’ve been rejected the last..what..like SIX times), I was rejected after paying 100+ dollars for traveling to a foreign country. I’m such a loser. Is it a bad thing to want someone who actually likes me for who I am? I wish someone would. I really need it right now. Considering quitting my job and leaving europe.
SUASODJ FKAD:J SAJK DJFJdak fje ii iamsosaditfuckingsuckswhyisthisevenhappeningIthinkI’mkindofacatchatleastwhycantanyoneelseseethat???
I am very frustrated. VERY frustrated. I will never be part of a solid group here and it really pisses me off. No matter who I end up spending the most of my time with, I will always be an outsider. I’m not Austrian, I’m not a student, and I’m not a woman so I don’t even fit in with the au pairs. The gay community is too small and too difficult to even become a part of as a non-German speaker.
Regardless of how I’m doing at my job, I will never feel fully content or at home in this country. This realization sucks. Truthfully, I am extremely grateful for this opportunity, but at the same time I am very sad.
Being broke sucks too. Watch: I’m not even going to get into Swarthmore next week. That’ll just be the cherry on the fucking sundae.
Ich bin SO muede. Aber ich kann nicht schlafen.. und ich muss morgen um halb sieben wachen.
That I said “your welcome” instead of “you’re welcome” in a response post earlier. FUCK. I’m normally a grammar Nazi.. Guess I need more sleep?
Can anyone say First Year Applicant?